I cannot sense you close, though I know you're always here... <3

I know I am terrible at this but this really isn't about me, it's about God. Therefore anyway that I can reflect Him and His wonderfulness to me, I will.
So, I've been having a lot of doubts lately. Brought on by many things. Doubts such as, is this where God wants me? Doubts concerning school, my future plans, my job, friends, etc... yeah and a boy lol.
I feel kind of like God has left me lately as well. I know He hasn't and perhaps it's just me but I have been patiently waiting and listening to a wonderful song to get me through "faithful" by Brooke Fraser. Check it out!
I keep looking to God for guidance, to lead me on the right path. I just want to walk in His will and not my own selfish ambitions. But how do we know that we are following this? The only way I can think of to figure this answer out is to constantly pray and talk to God. To ask Him for a sign... multiple signs...even an endless amount of signs. Unfortunately, I am very skeptical so I enjoy many many signs. I have been to the point where I am crying out for Him, my patience has been wearing thin.
Little did I know, he was answering me right then and there, I was just not opening my eyes wide enough to see. I was too focused on Him hearing me rather than being patient and listening to His wonderful words and signs.
God has graciously told me that I am where He wants me to be. And I have been realizing lately that the more I attempt to walk in His will and earnestly cry out for Him. The more He will lead me in the right direction and turn me away from a dead end.
So, to answer how do we know? We'll we don't always unless He tells us. But we can try our best to do things for Him and not ourselves. This alone has put rest on my worrying heart. Everything will work out when we are living for God. Things may not seem to work out, but I honestly believe there is a reason for everything.
Even why God led us to a certain school or church. Which He has taught me lately. I have been wondering why I was brought there and looking at my wonderful friends, the wonderful group on campus I attend called 180 Christian Fellowship!!! Where I have met such great people! The church I attend on sunday... just everything.
God took away a relationship I was in that was just crumbling me. I was falling apart. I would cry literally every night straight for eight months. I thought he was my world. Four years and I assumed it had to be him.. but then we grew apart. God taught me, it took a while, but He taught me where I needed to be in my life. That opened up my eyes to seeing I needed God more than ever. That I should fully rely on God and God only. And that God is and always will be number one in my life. No one is above Him and no one ever will be. Sorry boys. lol.
Honestly, I have never been happier. I think the only time I cry now is when I'm wicked frustrated or stressed. And I believe... no I KNOW it is because my God is too wonderful to me. The more I walk with Him, the happier my life is.
So, random tangent and all.
God is wonderful. He will answer you if you seek for Him.
He has three answers to prayer.
1. Yes.
2. Not yet.
3. I have something better in mind.
<3 Manda